Relationships with God

How is your relationship with God?

I am not going to lie, I feel God is more like a friend than my Father in Heaven. I don’t know when this happened, when I started treating God as a friend. All I know is all of sudden it hit me while driving the other day.

It’s a hard realization to know that the God who created you, the God who knows everything about you, you treat them as someone you just hang out with sometimes. Do you constantly go to Him? Do you pray to Him in desperation? Or Do you pray when it’s convenient to you? Do you go to sleep without batting an eye on the fact you have not once that day talked to God or been in God’s word? or maybe you’re like me, and you feel guilty because you have not prayed and have not been in the Word but yet you still choose to sleep or ignore the fact you have not spoken to God or heard from Him.

Recently, I keep hearing myself say, “I haven’t heard from God lately”, “I feel forgotten”, “Why am I so lonely?” Sound familiar? The answer is I have forgotten Him that He is my God and not my friend. I haven’t heard from him because I don’t give him the time. I feel forgotten and lonely because I occasionally talk to Him.

He is not a friend who is going to give you a call because you didn’t contact them. He may throw signs but its up to you on whether or not you choose to ignore them. Treat God like The God, not your occasional friend. Pray and pray with desperation. Dive in the Word of God and allow Him to speak to you.

If you don’t give the effort to have a true relationship with God as your Father in heaven, temptation is probably knocking at your door and sin is right around the corner. Don’t give into sin because you haven’t been fighting your battles with a true relationship.

Prayer: God, you are amazing. You know everything about me but yet you still choose me. You still want to use me to do your will. I apologize for treating you God more as a friend than who you truly are. Be with me as I continue to strengthen our relationship. I know temptation may be waiting for me, but God please give me the strength not give in. I give you all the praise and all the honor. I love you Lord. In Jesus’s name. Amen. 

I want to SHOUT

My family, that’s complicated. We’re complicated. People tell me I have a weird, drama full family. Now we have a Jesus worshiper and follower, and all she wants to do is just love Jesus and live HER life, not theirs. I am that person. I used to quiet subdued and did not say anything and just went with the flow. I decided to slam on the brakes to the fast track life of failure that I was going down. I decided to follow Jesus and do you know, even though “raised’ in a “Christian family”, they do not agree with my following. I get from every single one of them,”I’m glad it makes you happy”. Do they really? Makes me happy? In all honesty, my emotions and my brokenness is worse then when I was a fast track to hell. Not everyday am I happy, not everyday am full of joy, not everyday I laugh, not everyday to rejoice in the Lord; but I can and I should. I can turn back to Jesus and know that everything will be okay. I know that he is there. I can pray, I can worship him.  I have a savior.

(I also get, “Is she okay?”)

I do not care who agrees with me anymore. I don’t want to be quiet anymore. I don’t want to sit back and let people tell me what to believe. I want to be loud. He saved me from hell, from my past, from my failures. I am sick and tired of people telling me I am either a failure, or I have no idea what I am getting myself into. Guess what? I don’t care. I am saved regardless if I think my life is failing regardless if I don’t think I have anyone to turn to. Regardless of anything. I have Jesus Christ right beside me and he will be with me for an eternity. I can’t say that about my family, I can’t say that about my friends because I do not know who is “Christian” or who is a Christian. I cannot speak for them.  I can only speak for me and my relationship with God.