Unintentionally Intentional Ignorance

Today during the sermon, I began to question whether or not I was intentionally avoiding connection with God or if it was unintentional.

There’s this saying that is “You will set time for things you want to set time for” So if you don’t make God a priority are you intentionally avoiding connection with Him?  You could argue both sides. However, I believe at least for me, it’s  unintentionally intentional. Meaning that at first I unintentionally placed God on the back burner. I unintentionally allowed my time with Him to be put aside, but as time marches on you get to a point where you recognize it, but instead of acknowledging it and setting time aside, you continue ignoring it and it becomes a pattern in your life.

Why do we get to that point? Why do we let it become a pattern?

Maybe it’s just me. Maybe I’m the only one who struggles with this whole connection thing. Maybe it’s just me who feels broken and tries to hide it and hide from it. I mean seriously if I don’t talk no one will know right? If I don’t say anything no one will know that I’m secretly struggling with my connection with God, if I don’t say anything no one will know that I struggle with loneliness, no one will know that I struggle with worthiness, no one will know that I struggle with accepting any compliment as genuine, no one will know that I struggle with relationships, no one will know that I am a complete mess and completely broken.  Hiding prevents the light from coming in and allows for darkness to creep in.

Don’t hide. Don’t be afraid to tell people who you trust in your life what you are going through because God doesn’t want you to go through life alone. God put those people in your life for a reason. Yes, it will be uncomfortable, but God doesn’t grow you in your comfort zone. You are allowed to struggle. You are allowed to not be okay in moments. You allowed not to be perfect. Don’t let your sinful self be what’s holding you back from your connection with God.

So if we don’t make God a priority  we will lose that connection. We lose our ability to keep fighting, because we aren’t allowing God to provide our strength, we only rely on our own. God has amazing plans for your life, you just have to be able to make Him a priority again in your life. Let God be your King of your life again, let Him be God again.

Relationships with God

How is your relationship with God?

I am not going to lie, I feel God is more like a friend than my Father in Heaven. I don’t know when this happened, when I started treating God as a friend. All I know is all of sudden it hit me while driving the other day.

It’s a hard realization to know that the God who created you, the God who knows everything about you, you treat them as someone you just hang out with sometimes. Do you constantly go to Him? Do you pray to Him in desperation? Or Do you pray when it’s convenient to you? Do you go to sleep without batting an eye on the fact you have not once that day talked to God or been in God’s word? or maybe you’re like me, and you feel guilty because you have not prayed and have not been in the Word but yet you still choose to sleep or ignore the fact you have not spoken to God or heard from Him.

Recently, I keep hearing myself say, “I haven’t heard from God lately”, “I feel forgotten”, “Why am I so lonely?” Sound familiar? The answer is I have forgotten Him that He is my God and not my friend. I haven’t heard from him because I don’t give him the time. I feel forgotten and lonely because I occasionally talk to Him.

He is not a friend who is going to give you a call because you didn’t contact them. He may throw signs but its up to you on whether or not you choose to ignore them. Treat God like The God, not your occasional friend. Pray and pray with desperation. Dive in the Word of God and allow Him to speak to you.

If you don’t give the effort to have a true relationship with God as your Father in heaven, temptation is probably knocking at your door and sin is right around the corner. Don’t give into sin because you haven’t been fighting your battles with a true relationship.

Prayer: God, you are amazing. You know everything about me but yet you still choose me. You still want to use me to do your will. I apologize for treating you God more as a friend than who you truly are. Be with me as I continue to strengthen our relationship. I know temptation may be waiting for me, but God please give me the strength not give in. I give you all the praise and all the honor. I love you Lord. In Jesus’s name. Amen.